bougainvillea tops the city walls; xenophobia softened
Bougainvillea [Senryū]
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I woke up seeing stars up in the sky, a blanket brightly twinkling above. But I could only guess just where I lie, and knew no better from what place I fell. And for a moment I was lost in stars, and felt the vastness I'd been cast against. What was it that I had rebelled against? What got me tossed from beyond vaulted skies? Was it that I tried counting all the stars? Or that I turned my focus from above? Can I return some day from whence I fell? Or is it best to stay right where I lie? You may think I tell myself perfect lies, that I'm angry with those I've sinned against. But I'm not sure my exile was a fall, and I'm not sure I lived beyond the sky. What of the freedom not seen far above? What of the beauty seen amid the stars? For now, I reside in the field of stars. Where passersby told stories full of lies, and I have no love for the far above. It's just a place that I once raged against. They preach earth and water and endless skies, but not a thing is here that never fell. It's all matter that spiraled as it fell that formed this platform amid blazing stars. A vacuum beyond mountain, sea, and sky. But I remember that's the greatest lie - the one that I had always railed against. That meaning lie in words like "far above." That word is laden with judgment: "above." And where's the gravity by which I fell? Can puny bodies be so pulled against where exist so many colossal stars? So many obstacles between us lie, and so much nothing before reaching sky. There's no "above," only a field of stars. And no one fell; that's just a peoples' lie. Nothing stands against me - no endless sky.
I'm banished from the world I know, and cast into darkness. And I sit within a lonely room, accepting starkness. The plain and empty walls and floors have nothing left to say. I'll venture any way I want, but must remain a stray. I'm not expecting sympathy. I know that hour is gone. I only want it to be known I've wandered all along.
When time stopped behaving, I should have known that war was coming - perhaps, something worse. Those who saw themselves sinless grabbed their stones, and started chanting bile -- their wicked curse. The hopeless cried with wide eyes, but in vain as they were huddled around burning fires. The best of us opted to go insane, and build crude armor from old belts and tires. We'd flank a castle that did not exist like Don Quixote, tilting at windmills. Better to charge a false monster and miss than to have Folly chase one to the hills. Who says it's worse to slouch to lunacy than suffer the world's fury lucidly?
The Medea of Euripides by Gilbert Murray