You knew me in the time of caves.
When gods and spirits nightly raved
and ghosts sat seaside watching waves,
as men and oxen were enslaved
in stories they could not fathom.
divoted wall
bullet-pocked in a war long past
blemishes kept in remembrance
when foul winds blow from the past
we’re reminded how imagined catastrophes steer history
blinding fire of neurons
— excitation & secretion —
all from a 2-D arrangement of pixels
that my brain thinks is worth getting worked up over —
symmetry, smoothness, scaling, and that jazz–
but that program isn’t the final word
i’ve re-jacked the synaptic dance
when the wiser bit recognized something
flawless in the arrangement of a pile of flaws
or a gorgeous simplicity,
or, alternatively, poison in the perfection
in the short-run,
what was said of pornography may be true of beauty —
i.e. “I know it when I see it.”
but, in the long run,
we’re all dust,
&
vaguely-remembered best impressions
At night, I die a shallow death.
The heaven is strange; its rules few.
I walk forest, field, and mansion,
weaving the doors of one hallway.
I’m told it’s me all the way down,
but something says, “Psst!” in the dark.
Subconscious is a drug dealer.
It tempts me with alluring prey.
I give chase in that spaceless space.
Unlike the dog with twitching legs,
This chase succeeds or fails at rest.
Then, I claw back to life each morn.
a rock slab juts angularly through the waves
in a tempest — torrential & tumultuous
the tip-top of that rock forms a jagged cliff,
and next to that jagged cliff stands a shack —
rickety but resolute —
it sways in whipping winds,
but neither collapses
nor flies into the gnashing maw & smashing fists
of the monstrous surge below
between the slats of that shack,
a rain-pelted eye peers out,
awaiting the lightning that will
show her a flash frame of infinite, angry seas
skeletal nakedness,
lurking in the shadow black corner
of a moonlit room
invisible,
but emitting a hum
fifty octaves below human hearing
eyes closed
the world vanishes
a switch is flipped
and I’m adrift
but the world spins on
i can hear it
if i listen
otherwise, it’s just chaos on a distant shore
two planks plonk against one another,
and I await a judge to call this world to order
the tinkle of a tiny bell
reminds me of snapping icicles
but unless the world has shifted under me
i’m in a place that only knows icicles
on the inside of an ice-cream vendor’s cart
what has made the puttering
of the Jetsons’ car so bass?
oh, that is a scooter
as i drift
a montage sounds,
signalling a shipwreck on that far shore
the clunk of a timber washed against sea worn rocks,
creaking wet rope,
the moans of wounded sailors,
and the screech of a seagulls
A wolf and lamb sewn end-to-end,
thrashing down a river.
Too distracted to flee or snap,
scrambling and aquiver.
But at the bend, they wash ashore,
gasping and shivering.
A tiny pause and wolf lunges,
sheep bleating, blithering.
The writhing and the scrambling,
rolls them back in water.
Bobbing, sputtering, too panicked
to flee or to slaughter.
I bumped my knee,
and got angry.
But, oh, my word,
it seemed absurd
to be enraged
as war I waged
on the kindling I made of that table.